this is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world

yup. that's me. or at least that's how i'm feeling right now. i don't know, probably a surge of hormones (if you know what I mean). but i'm definitely feeling blue. i feel empty. i feel sad. i feel like a failure. i feel like crap. stupid rain. stupid snot. stupid mind. haaaaaaaaayyyy..

i'm so overly filled with emotions, sad negative emotions. one minute i'm laughing and the next thing i know a tear comes rolling down my cheek. one tear... two tears... three tears... bllaaahhh..

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these are just one of those days.....

perfect combination

yes! i have a realization yet again! :D hihihihi

i have just come to realize more and more how God loves me so much, and how He has been providing me with everything that I need (and even want) :)

specific example: my work-acads "balance"

i just have to share this awesome heart-warming experience. ♥

i have been ranting these past few days (or weeks) about how bored I am with my current job. and how I miss the action and adrenaline rush that I was getting during my stay at PADCC. but after much contemplation, it struck me that this was God's blessing to me. This was His welcome gift for me on my entry to another chapter of my life (aka leap of faith). I have said it as such coz it is not really in my nature to take risks, or to take on something with an unsure outcome. As you know, I filed my resignation without any backup as to where to work next.

I have already set some criteria. I needed a job that would'nt be too demanding for time and mind work. I wanted a job that could give me enough moolah to sustain my spending habits. I was looking for something that would allow me to become a diligent student in grad school, but at the same time something that can feed me and allow me to buy stuff. And now that I think about it, what He gave me is exactly what I need and want at the same time.

He gave me this, which perfectly fits the criteria. It was exactly what I needed and wanted. At work, I get to finish my tasks ahead of time. It does not give me too much of a headache. And most of all, I get compliments with the good work that I do. My current job also gives me all the time that I need to finish all my requirements for school. So everything is just going smoothly, side by side.

And what's more, come to think of it, I got this at the most impeccable timing! I got the acceptance email at my last day at work at the very last hour of my stay there!!! How cool can God get?!?!?! :)

So yeah, to sum it all up, I have been able to balance everything so far. Work, school, family and love life. So far, I've been having the best time of my life, all thanks to God. I can truly feel how He blesses me everyday. Everything has been a blessing. And i sincerely wish that everyone could see their experiences in the same way :)

that is my heart right now. a very happy one :) ang galing ko mag paint, right? hahaha :D

masaya ako!

mababaw lang ako na tao. i find enjoyment even in the simplest things. like how i have the opportunity to spend quality time with my boyfriend everyday. and how we walk home together after the office while eating pretzels, laughing our hearts out and talking about just anything and everything. and how i know i have a family who truly loves, supports and cares for me. having friends and loved ones who are always there for me no matter what. my fun grad school classmates and the joy of being in school again. at syempre, who could ever forget the ever faithful 15th and 30th of the month! :) plus so many many many more!

isn't life the sweetest? i'm so happy right now. and i just want to share the happiness to ALL OF YOU!

all these i owe to none other than my awesome God. i love you!

:)

tumblr rumble

i love how the people in tumblr are so creative! i'll post some selections here every once in a while.

first batch! :P







credits: photos from http://iheartlove.tumblr.com/

no regrets!

naisip ko lang to. i just wanted to put something on fb that would simply summarize how i feel at the moment. and i came up with this:

effort sa paint! nyehehehe! :)

honestly i just made this up as some sort of pampalubag loob. whether you like it or not, there will be some decisions that you'll most likely regret. but i've learned that once you let the wrong decision get the best of you, that's the time you start to lose. so instead of moping about it, just deal with it and handle it the best that you can. and don't forget to ask for help from our Big Guy up there. He always listens