So Here Goes...: June 2010

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

my empire state of mind

You know the thing I look forward to everyday, at least every weekday, is the after-office walk. I love walking along Ayala avenue in the afternoon, when the sunshine is not too hot and when everyone I see walking along with me looks so corporate (despite the fact that they're commuting. haha). I have long been wanting this environment. This corporate feeling that it gives me. That is why my after-office stroll is usually accompanied by the song Empire State of Mind. Don't you just love it?

I love doing the walk alone. It gives me some me time that helps think and contemplate on stuff that's happened, happening and will happen in my life. And now at this point, I have come to realize that working abroad might not be a bad idea at all.

When the thought of it was first brought up during my high school college years, I was all negative about it. For me, it is better to stay here in the Philippines and then do some vacay travelling abroad. That was my idea of being well off at that time. And probably still is. But when I entered the real working world, and after being in it for more than 3 yrs, I must admit that it is pretty hard. And I have heard lots of success stories from my friends who took the adventure of going to a foreign country to work there.

My boyfriend and I have been discussing this for sometime now. And we have come to agree that there is no harm in trying to work abroad (besides the possibility of money loss if it fails. hehehe). We are still young and in the prime ages, why not give it a shot right? And now I'm all so giddy about it. I've been discussing these plans with some of my closest friends as well, and we all have the same opinion about it.

After much discussions, we came to the conclusion that Singapore appears to be the most viable option at the moment. Relatively less hassle in working visa processing, proximity to the Philippines and the great compensation package that most companies there offer.

aaaahhhhh... see those pretty lights in the night sky care of the tall buildings? the skyline? oh so pretty!

But since I'm pretty much preoccupied right now with school, I don't feel yet that urgency to move or whatever. I now leave everything to God. I know He knows what's best for me. So I'll just wait and be cautious of the signals He'll send.

I have to be honest though, watching How I Met Your Mother (Noah's and my current fave show) and seeing the SATC 2 trailer is not really helping me with the waiting. at all. hahaha.

anyway, i guess i'll see you soon my international corporate life! see you real soon! ;)

Friday, June 11, 2010

first day high

first day of grad school tomorrow! gaaaaahhhh!!! i can't breathe. hahaha. i'm getting so anxious-nervous. i don't know what to expect. we have quite some personalities for professors. i hope i do good. i hope i can give out my very best. please Lord. :)

kthnxbye

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

on elevators, school and moving on

WOW!

so how long has it been? 4 months or so since my last entry? well, don't hate, my [invisible] readers. it's just that i underwent some major changes. well for one thing, i have resigned from PADCC. and i am now officially a student once again. see, that's a lot right? :)

ok so the resignation. well yeah, i actually started planning that out ever since last year. i gave my boss a 6-month notice. haha. model employee, right? i told him my plans as early as October, but he decided to let me go completely just last May. i was a bum for sometime, but the hyperactive and giddy Tam inside of me just won't let me stay at home and rot.

i started with work just a few weeks ago. and this is something not just different for me, but totally new. i'm in a new industry now, really far from my academic and previous work background. and you know what, surprisingly, i am enjoying it. i don't know if it's the fact that i get to spend most of my time in the internet doing stuff you do when you're at home when you're bored, or the new environment, new people, tall buildings, early out, or the elevator rides. :) but you know there's something about the latter that makes me realize that i'm in a whole new world now. i get to see and encounter a lot of people everyday. i get to see and admire people dressed up fancy, as compared to the tita wardrobes that i see everyday in QC. or the hassle it gives me even with the simple task of buying breakfast or lunch. or simply because of that butterfly feeling you get in your stomach whenever it goes up and down. it gives me a sense of corporate feel. HAHA. shallow as it may seem, but it is in these simple things that i missed with my first work i find joy and satisfaction of being 23 (turning 24). i just want to try to live a normal life of a 24 year old lady. no pressures. no take home work. earning big bucks. night life. and all that. my first job you know was... uumm.. well....man that was so serious! i needed this break, this shallowness, for me to be able to compose myself for the next level up in my career.

which brings us to SCHOOL. graduate school to be exact. i've enrolled myself at the University of the Philippines in Diliman to take up Masters in Development Economics. at first, it was my scape goat. but little by little, with each attendance to that refresher course every saturday, i have come to realize the great deal and value that this can bring to my life once i have completed and accomplished every part of the program. and this is also my first super testament on how independent and mature i can be. :) i try real hard to show everyone that i'm a grown up now. i pay my own tuition, i buy my own books and materials, i arrange for my enrollment/registration. all these gave me a feeling of grown-up-ism (hahahaha yes imbentong word ko yan). right now, i am at the excitement stage. but i pray hard to God that He lets this excitement be in me all throughout until i finish. i want to do good in school this time! i know i can do it, i just need to push myself harder this time around. i need to stop being lazy. oh well, tamara...... :)

and with this new and exciting things, i know i have to keep moving forward. it's time to move on! i know i can never get to anywhere if i keep on wallowing in the past, bad things. i have so many plans right now -- become a preschool teacher, become a flight attendant, become a TV reporter and many other outrageous ideas. but i have to make work all that i have now. i need to bring out the best in me.

so there, this has been what's going on in my mind. and i have God to thank for surrounding me with people who truly love and care for and understand me. without them, i'd probably be just be sulking right now. :/

yes, so this is me. the revitalized, rejuvenated me. :)

all for now,
toodles <3