Bob Marley KNOWS love

I never knew Bob Marley was the romantic type of guy. Well not really romantic-mushy. But rather romantic-cool, or romantic-profound. I stumbled on one site a couple of days back which contains a list of his notable quotes about love and life.

I found three which struck me the most. Three quotes that says EXACTLY how I feel about love and my love.

1. “He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break: his heart. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”

2. [a modification of #1; girl version] “You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.”

3. “Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

Well just um

Another contract has come to an end. Another semester nearing its close. Another chapter ready to be turned, and another yet to unfold.
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So many changes coming. I am kind of scared, but mostly excited. I am a fan of new stuff, whatever that stuff is. However, I am a major antagonist for goodbyes.
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I like feeling how important I am to people. I especially like the feeling of when they let me know about it. When you hear unemotional people get emotional about that.
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Confrontations aren't really my thing. I try as much as possible to avoid it. Although there were a number of times which I thought a confrontation is needed, and also some times that there was almost a confrontation, but I either slept or chose to ignore. But now, I can't help but think that it would've been better if I faced it.
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In my opinion, the whole world revolves on love. It may not be the romantic type of love, probably platonic, agape or whatever type it is, but it is love. Parents work because they love their children. A husband works because he loves his wife. Leaders of the country courageously stand in the front row because of love for the country. And friends try to be there for each other because of love. But sometimes, love goes overboard (which is why we have all sorts of "policemen" in the country -- those you find in the streets, in jail, in classrooms, and even libraries). People think they're doing something good because they love someone, but sometimes they are misled away from their original purpose, therefore strangling the other person in the process. Others have it the hard way. Some people leave it unsaid. But then again, everything that happens in our lives is God's plan, so...
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Why can't you stop being cool? Why can't you just let it go? Why can't you stop being fun? Why can't you stop talking? Why can't you just STOP? Especially if you plan to leave it hanging. Well that just sucks.
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Another thing that helps love to turn the world around, well probably the one that distorts its order is GREED. Especially if coupled with jealousy. Aaahhh probably that's why my life is just running around in circles... Going nowhere... Well at least at the moment.

My letter to that somebody. About love's false image.

hindi na ako naniniwala sa love na yan. hindi na ko naniniwala sa existence nya at sinasabing definition nyan.

when I first found out how you felt about me, I was thrilled. It was my first time to feel such an incredible thing. I never thought that being in love with your bestfriend was possible, until you happened. our relationship was amazing, and it was everything i have ever dreamed of. comfortable ako sayo, i can share to you my secrets, you shared yours with me, you made me laugh, and i know i made you laugh as well. we sought happiness in the same things. we were supportive of each other. we were there for each other. we understood each other. there were times that we falter, pero nakaya natin lampasan. nahuli mo ako may katext dati. nahuli kita na nakikipaghalikan at nakikisiping kung kanikanino. pero wala yun, nalampasan natin yon.

then came January 2008, nung nakita yung picture mo with that nurse. i was dumbfounded. i never thought na mangyayari satin yon. to think na we spent an amazing time the day before that. nag absent tayo at nag starcity. then i saw that picture. my pain was beyond words. i can't comprehend how it happened, kasi wala akong nakitang signs na may ganun palang nangyayari. you were still sweet and still the same old you until that time. akala ko hindi na ko makakarecover. sobrang buo na sa isip ko na makikipaghiwalay ako sayo kasi sinaktan mo ko at niloko. pero apparently, hindi ko pala kaya. nung umagang yon, hanggang nung gabi, you were persistently calling and texting me, to explain what happened and at the same time to ask for my forgiveness. pero i wanted to stand firm to what i said. tama na. hindi ko na kayang tingnan ka the same way. niloko mo ako. at nasaktan ako.

pero nung nakita kita that night, lasing, umiiyak, at puno ng pagsamo ang muka, natunaw ang puso ko. bumalik sakin lahat ng pinagdaanan natin, simula nung summer of 2004 nung nag confess ka ng nararamdaman mo sakin. naisip ko, hindi ko hahayaan na masira ng basta basta ang relasyon natin. ng ganun ganun na lang. so i took you in. i even took care of you and slept beside you that night. sobbing and embracing you kasi naiinis ako na nagyari yon kasi mahal kita and what we had was really important to me.

alam mo na hindi naging madali yun para sakin, lalo na everytime pumupunta ako sa office mo at naririnig ko pa ang mga "pabiro" na comments ng officemates mo at yung iba nyo pang pictures. but i managed. i said to myself na mas importante ka at ang kung anung meron tayo kesa sa kung ano pa mang distraction na dumating satin. and so i was able to move on. i was able to give you 100% of my heart again, as well as my trust. and kahit na hanggang ngayon i still see pictures of you with other girls, iniisip ko lang na ako ang mahal mo. see how i can easily forgive you kahit may nakikita akong mga bagay na tumutusok nanaman sa puso ko.

and now, this happened to us, and this time it was because of me. mali nga yon na i became too close to a guy other than you. i understand that it was my fault. and i told you na i will maintain my distance. and i know after that there were still a couple of times na nagfalter ako. pero alam mo, hinding hindi kita ipagpapalit sa kahit kanino. and kung meron man naidulot na mabuti itong pangyayaring ito, mas nakita ko pa nga ang importansya mo sa buhay ko. mas nakita ko pa kung gano ka ka-angat sa ibang lalaki. mas nakita ko kung gano ako kaswerte kasi ikaw ang boyfriend ko ngayon. mahirap man isipin or paniwalaan, pero ikaw lang ang nagiisa para sakin. ikaw lang. and i am really doing everything to make you comfortable again. nasa opisina ako, at may mga hindi maiiwasang pagkakataon na kelangan pa rin makipagusap, pero ako alam ko sa sarili ko na walang malisya ang mga yon. at wala akong ibang hangad kundi matapos lang ang tarbaho.

at ngayon, sa totoo lang, you are giving me a hard time. i thought it is supposed to be that "Love is patient. Love is kind. Love isn't jealous. It doesn't sing its own praises. It isn't arrogant." and all that. sabi si 1 Corinthians 13. but apparently, iba yung nangyayari pala sa totoong buhay. i tried, and i would like to believe na we tried, pero hindi pala sya posible. you are my love. and you told me that i was yours too. pero hindi nangyari ang mga bagay na ito.

anyway, hindi ko naman na gustong guluhin ko. i would just like to let you know how much i love you. and that i tried my best, but i guess it's not good enough for you. all the best. God bless you!

-Tam

Fork on the road

Have you ever caught yourself choosing between two life changing situations? It's pretty hard right?

That's what I feel now [though I can't help but think that I brought this to myself. haha]. What I'm saying is, I'm kind of stuck between two options, particularly in my career [oh fun]. One road is to continue with what I'm doing now -- finish grad school with a degree in economics, become an economist, engage myself in macroeconomic issues, work in the government, etc. And then the other road is to shift. A totally different shift. I was thinking more on the line of marketing. I've always thought of myself as a people person. Not too much though, but I find it relatively easy to deal with them. Organize events. Plan on how to get people's attention. Stuff like that. It won't be easy. If I choose to go this way, I would have to start from the bottom again, in order to acquire the required knowledge and expertise to reach the top. I would also have to shift to another course, something that would be relevant to such an endeavor.

One funny thing is that all of these realizations dawned on me one friday afternoon. I was seating at my office desk, doing some reports and trying to download some reading materials for my class the following day. The dread that I've been experiencing the past few years suddenly became heavier. And there was this voice inside telling me that I could do something about it. I then saw a couple of my friends abroad on facebook, I mean their activities. I saw how awesome their life is. It is, relative to what I'm going through here. And then it hit me. I CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS. I'm young. I'm free from any moral obligations. I can do this. I want to accomplish all this before I get married and stuff.

So I'm trying to take matters into my own hands. I'm praying hard for God to give me guidance. I'm waiting. I'll patiently wait. I've submitted all that I have to. So it's now up to them to let me know what's in store for my future. It's exciting. I can't wait. :)

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts

1. I am a Virgo

2. I don't drink soda, or any carbonated drink for that matter

3. I don't eat vegetables

4. I love walking

5. I love cakes, cookies and other pastries!

6. I love to travel

7. I have been to Indonesia, Singapore, Bangkok. USA and Brazil

8. I am a middle child

9. I love pasta

10. I love any type of food with cheese

11. I love my iPad! haha!

12. I am 24 years and 11 months old.

13. I love taking pictures. Amateur pictures.

14. I love reading blogs of random people.

15. I love talking :D

The 100-day photo challenge

Yes, ladies and gentlemen. I shall be engaging myself in this viral "challenge". Well I might be a bit delayed, but I guess it's better late than never! :) And I'm really looking forward to doing this so that I'll be forced to update my blog more often.

Instruction is pretty simple: post a picture based on the description per day. Yep, that's just about it!

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts**
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite movie
Day 04 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 08 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of someone you do the craziest things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of your favorite store
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of the sexiest Woman alive
Day 19 - A picture of something you love to do.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you never leave the house without
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of someone you miss
Day 25 - A picture of you from last year
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of your favorite night
Day 28 - A picture of your favorite place in the world
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of your favorite quote
Day 31 - A picture of food you made
Day 32 - A picture of what you did today
Day 33 - A picture of somewhere you went today
Day 34 - A picture of your favorite morning
Day 35 - A picture of your hometown
Day 36 - A picture of your pet
Day 37 - A picture taken at school
Day 38 - A picture of your favorite drink
Day 39 - A picture of your favorite food
Day 40 - A picture of your friends
Day 41 - A picture of your favorite weather
Day 42 - A picture of you listening to music
Day 43 - A picture of you celebrating
Day 44 - A picture that describes your life
Day 45 - A picture of your favorite cartoon character
Day 46 - A picture that you edited
Day 47 - A picture of your favorite animal
Day 48 - A picture of you more than 10 years ago
Day 49 - A picture of you and your best friend(s)
Day 50 - A picture of yourself
Day 51 - A picture of you wearing sunglasses
Day 52 - A picture of you dressed up
Day 53 - A picture of you in a car
Day 54 - A picture of you on your last vacation
Day 55 - A picture of you with a date
Day 56 - A picture of you all bundled up
Day 57 - A picture of you in your backyard
Day 58 - A picture of your hair all done
Day 59 - A picture of you at prom
Day 60 - A picture of you at a sports game
Day 61 - A picture of you on a ride
Day 62 - A picture of luggage
Day 63 - A picture of you at work
Day 64 - A picture of you at a park
Day 65 - A picture of you in the air
Day 66 - A picture of you doing something childish
Day 67 - A picture of you falling
Day 68 - A picture of you outside
Day 69 - A picture of a crazy night out
Day 70 - A picture of someone you don’t go a day without talking to
Day 71 - A picture of you with people you work with
Day 72 - A picture of you with unbelievable scenery
Day 73 - A picture of you somewhere warm
Day 74 - A picture taken professionally
Day 75 - A picture of you receiving a reward
Day 76 - A picture of you drinking something
Day 77 - A picture of you and friends making silly faces
Day 78 - A picture of you in the dark
Day 79 - A picture of you in the water
Day 80 - A picture of you and someone you love being silly
Day 81 - A picture of you with a character
Day 82 - A picture of someone you love asleep
Day 83 - A picture of you and a teammate
Day 84 - A picture of a school project
Day 85 - A picture of your favorite holiday
Day 86 - A picture of someone who helps you with school
Day 87 - A picture of someone you grew up with
Day 88 - A picture of your dream car
Day 89 - A picture of you at a hotel
Day 90 - A picture of you wearing your favorite color
Day 91 - A picture of you and your friends playing a game
Day 92 - A picture of your school
Day 93 - A picture of your favorite board game
Day 94 - A picture of you and your friends eating
Day 95 - A picture of you on a plane
Day 96 - A picture of your favorite movie
Day 97 - A picture of something you no longer have
Day 98 - A picture of you and your friends out somewhere
Day 99 - A picture that was first on your facebook.
Day 100 - A picture of you smiling

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So yeah, good luck to me!

It's raining!

It's been pouring like crazy for the past few days (or weeks). All corners of the Philippines have experienced rain, even Mindanao. I guess it really is climate change/global warming that's acting up. It's pretty scary to see a pool of brown water every night when I get home. Who knows what's in there.

Keep safe and dry everyone!

About everything

JOB
Gaaahhh. I'm still in search for that "perfect" job. How come others my age already have their own cars, started buying houses and have their own staff? How come other people younger me are at my salary level? How come all these people have the best opportunities while I don't?

SIGH.

Facebook is an awful thing. It is the reason why I feel these insecurities. Coz I see how successful other people are.

FRIENDS
I'm so lucky and blessed that I have a lot of true friends around me. These people whom I know I can turn to and won't betray. I love them to death. I love how most of them inspire me to be a better person, and to try to achieve more.

LOVE
The past few days were definitely whirlwind-ish. Ups, downs. But I'm also so blessed to have this person who won't leave me and will never give up on me.

SCHOOL
AHHH! Still to early to tell. Bwahahaha!

OMG!

yes. napapa-OMG talaga ako. i just remembered that I have a blog nga pala. hehehe. as usual, a lot has happened AGAIN for the past how-many-months:

1. 1st year grad school is over! oyeah!

2. new job... yet again

3. new fone. hahaha

4. lost some acquaintances, but then got to see who the real ones are

5. i'm back on twitter!

6. NEW YEAR!

7. gaining a bit more independence on driving

8. more love for and from my love <3

9. break na si atom and patty! huhuhu my ultimate idol couple

10. a LOT of realizations

those are just some. i feel really blessed that every new day in my life feels like an adventure (or at least that's how i want to look at it :p). of course there are still bad times, but i would rather look and take hold of the good ones, than wallow on the those otherwise. once again, i am asking for more blessings, patience,courage and wisdom for these new things in my life. i am so happy that i have my loved ones to be with me all throughout. i am also looking forward to more travels! hehehehe!

by the way, i just want to let this out. it's a bit off topic pero NAKAKAASAR NA TALAGA SYA SA FACEBOOK! grrrr!!! yabang! hay. ayun lang

:D