Bob Marley KNOWS love

I never knew Bob Marley was the romantic type of guy. Well not really romantic-mushy. But rather romantic-cool, or romantic-profound. I stumbled on one site a couple of days back which contains a list of his notable quotes about love and life.

I found three which struck me the most. Three quotes that says EXACTLY how I feel about love and my love.

1. “He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break: his heart. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”

2. [a modification of #1; girl version] “You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.”

3. “Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

Well just um

Another contract has come to an end. Another semester nearing its close. Another chapter ready to be turned, and another yet to unfold.
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So many changes coming. I am kind of scared, but mostly excited. I am a fan of new stuff, whatever that stuff is. However, I am a major antagonist for goodbyes.
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I like feeling how important I am to people. I especially like the feeling of when they let me know about it. When you hear unemotional people get emotional about that.
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Confrontations aren't really my thing. I try as much as possible to avoid it. Although there were a number of times which I thought a confrontation is needed, and also some times that there was almost a confrontation, but I either slept or chose to ignore. But now, I can't help but think that it would've been better if I faced it.
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In my opinion, the whole world revolves on love. It may not be the romantic type of love, probably platonic, agape or whatever type it is, but it is love. Parents work because they love their children. A husband works because he loves his wife. Leaders of the country courageously stand in the front row because of love for the country. And friends try to be there for each other because of love. But sometimes, love goes overboard (which is why we have all sorts of "policemen" in the country -- those you find in the streets, in jail, in classrooms, and even libraries). People think they're doing something good because they love someone, but sometimes they are misled away from their original purpose, therefore strangling the other person in the process. Others have it the hard way. Some people leave it unsaid. But then again, everything that happens in our lives is God's plan, so...
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Why can't you stop being cool? Why can't you just let it go? Why can't you stop being fun? Why can't you stop talking? Why can't you just STOP? Especially if you plan to leave it hanging. Well that just sucks.
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Another thing that helps love to turn the world around, well probably the one that distorts its order is GREED. Especially if coupled with jealousy. Aaahhh probably that's why my life is just running around in circles... Going nowhere... Well at least at the moment.

My letter to that somebody. About love's false image.

hindi na ako naniniwala sa love na yan. hindi na ko naniniwala sa existence nya at sinasabing definition nyan.

when I first found out how you felt about me, I was thrilled. It was my first time to feel such an incredible thing. I never thought that being in love with your bestfriend was possible, until you happened. our relationship was amazing, and it was everything i have ever dreamed of. comfortable ako sayo, i can share to you my secrets, you shared yours with me, you made me laugh, and i know i made you laugh as well. we sought happiness in the same things. we were supportive of each other. we were there for each other. we understood each other. there were times that we falter, pero nakaya natin lampasan. nahuli mo ako may katext dati. nahuli kita na nakikipaghalikan at nakikisiping kung kanikanino. pero wala yun, nalampasan natin yon.

then came January 2008, nung nakita yung picture mo with that nurse. i was dumbfounded. i never thought na mangyayari satin yon. to think na we spent an amazing time the day before that. nag absent tayo at nag starcity. then i saw that picture. my pain was beyond words. i can't comprehend how it happened, kasi wala akong nakitang signs na may ganun palang nangyayari. you were still sweet and still the same old you until that time. akala ko hindi na ko makakarecover. sobrang buo na sa isip ko na makikipaghiwalay ako sayo kasi sinaktan mo ko at niloko. pero apparently, hindi ko pala kaya. nung umagang yon, hanggang nung gabi, you were persistently calling and texting me, to explain what happened and at the same time to ask for my forgiveness. pero i wanted to stand firm to what i said. tama na. hindi ko na kayang tingnan ka the same way. niloko mo ako. at nasaktan ako.

pero nung nakita kita that night, lasing, umiiyak, at puno ng pagsamo ang muka, natunaw ang puso ko. bumalik sakin lahat ng pinagdaanan natin, simula nung summer of 2004 nung nag confess ka ng nararamdaman mo sakin. naisip ko, hindi ko hahayaan na masira ng basta basta ang relasyon natin. ng ganun ganun na lang. so i took you in. i even took care of you and slept beside you that night. sobbing and embracing you kasi naiinis ako na nagyari yon kasi mahal kita and what we had was really important to me.

alam mo na hindi naging madali yun para sakin, lalo na everytime pumupunta ako sa office mo at naririnig ko pa ang mga "pabiro" na comments ng officemates mo at yung iba nyo pang pictures. but i managed. i said to myself na mas importante ka at ang kung anung meron tayo kesa sa kung ano pa mang distraction na dumating satin. and so i was able to move on. i was able to give you 100% of my heart again, as well as my trust. and kahit na hanggang ngayon i still see pictures of you with other girls, iniisip ko lang na ako ang mahal mo. see how i can easily forgive you kahit may nakikita akong mga bagay na tumutusok nanaman sa puso ko.

and now, this happened to us, and this time it was because of me. mali nga yon na i became too close to a guy other than you. i understand that it was my fault. and i told you na i will maintain my distance. and i know after that there were still a couple of times na nagfalter ako. pero alam mo, hinding hindi kita ipagpapalit sa kahit kanino. and kung meron man naidulot na mabuti itong pangyayaring ito, mas nakita ko pa nga ang importansya mo sa buhay ko. mas nakita ko pa kung gano ka ka-angat sa ibang lalaki. mas nakita ko kung gano ako kaswerte kasi ikaw ang boyfriend ko ngayon. mahirap man isipin or paniwalaan, pero ikaw lang ang nagiisa para sakin. ikaw lang. and i am really doing everything to make you comfortable again. nasa opisina ako, at may mga hindi maiiwasang pagkakataon na kelangan pa rin makipagusap, pero ako alam ko sa sarili ko na walang malisya ang mga yon. at wala akong ibang hangad kundi matapos lang ang tarbaho.

at ngayon, sa totoo lang, you are giving me a hard time. i thought it is supposed to be that "Love is patient. Love is kind. Love isn't jealous. It doesn't sing its own praises. It isn't arrogant." and all that. sabi si 1 Corinthians 13. but apparently, iba yung nangyayari pala sa totoong buhay. i tried, and i would like to believe na we tried, pero hindi pala sya posible. you are my love. and you told me that i was yours too. pero hindi nangyari ang mga bagay na ito.

anyway, hindi ko naman na gustong guluhin ko. i would just like to let you know how much i love you. and that i tried my best, but i guess it's not good enough for you. all the best. God bless you!

-Tam